The lone wolf

"Authority is not imposed from above but granted from below."

That's just a saying I came across during my first lecture this morning and I liked it. Frequently, I walk everywhere in Newcastle so I basically have a lot of thinking time in my hands. With that, I've been reviewing my personality, actions and having deep thoughts in the first impressions I give to strangers or actually just what my family and close friends think of me right now. As usual, I'm feeling a little all over the place/messed up/unorganised. I never got myself in order in the first place so I guess it is just something that has risen up in my thoughts again.

Basically, I just don't want to be a hypocrite in whereby I do the things I complain or judge people about when they do it. It's actions and habits that become a daily routine in my life where I don't even notice that I do it in order to avoid it. This came up when I was on the phone with a close friend and he pointed out the errors in which there were a couple of words where I pronounced wrongly or used wrongly in a sentence. It made me question the actions that I carry out daily if it makes me a better or worse person and where is it getting me to. I don't know about you but my aim recently is just be a better person than I was the day before. In being more knowledgeable, in improving my personality and just getting myself one step closer to who I picture myself in the coming years. This blog entry might not make sense to you by all means it doesn't make sense to me either. Just to end this, thanks for reading till the end and hopefully I'll understand myself a little better tomorrow or whenever.