Pork and beans

Listening to Weezer's Pork and beans right now if you're wondering about the blog title.

So guys, I attended my first ever halloween party last Tuesday.
That was my first official clubbing experience and my second time drinking.
Yes, my birth certificate proves that I am 19 but it didn't come with a life manual where I can read about the extreme raging water rafting ride my life is going to be so I'm left with finding it out by my own like every single person out there.

Not going to lie, I had a pretty good time and surprisingly discovered a new ability.

I "think" I can actually drink.

My people(family and friends) that know me very well have an image in their minds where I despise clubbing, loud music, the smoke and drinking. However, I found out something else about me recently. I find myself more comfortable partying with people who I am close with but not close till we've known each other for almost a decade whereby they know/experience my horrible sense of humour and terrible habit of cleaning too much or my impatience issues. This is where the problem comes in.

I like to think that I play the "mother" role in my group of girls where I judge their life decisions and worry a little too much of them getting hurt or wanting them to be happy in everything and anything they are doing. So during the times where I was given the opportunity to drink and party, I put their safety first and fun at the bottom of the list. I now know how much of a party pooper I must have been to them at those times. I sincerely apologise, girls (message me when you read this) An addition to that, since they know me so well I don't actually want them to see me in my newly discovered "party mode" because... I shy.

Well, to set that aside, university so far has been treating me well and I'm happy. In some cases, I've been thinking about reducing the negativity around me and strengthening the positivity I have already accumulated throughout my nineteen years on Mother Earth.
That's all, nothing serious.

Planning to get myself a GoPro very soon just to satisfy my desire to dive into that wormhole of travel videography and see where it takes me.

Goodnight, internet.