21 books I'm going to read

1. You Deserve a Drink by Mamrie Hart
2. Blue Ocean Strategy by W.Chan Kim and Renée Mauborgne (Recommended by Aaron)
3. Alice's Adventure Under Ground by Lewis Carroll (Purchased in Cambridge)
4. The Melancholy Death of Oyster Boy & Other Stories by Tim Burton (Purchased in Brussels)
5. The Humans by Matt Haig (Recommended by Lewis)
6. Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell (Recommended by Christabelle)
7. Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur
8. The Tales of Beedle the Bard by J.K Rowling (Recommended by Chris)
9. The Diary of a Young Girl by Anne Frank (Recommended by Jesslyn)
10. Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone
11. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
12. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
13. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
14. Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
15. Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
16. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallow
17. The Sun and Her Flowers by Rupi Kaur
18. Salt by Nayyirah Waheed
19. 7,300 Days by Isabella Mente and Chase Wolcott
20. The Life Changing Magic of Not Giving a F**ck by Sarah Knight
21. Egghead: Or, You Can't Survive on Ideas alone by Bo Burnham
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22. Sherlock Holmes by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle (Recommended by Crystal)
23. Me Before You by Jojo Moyes (Recommended by Crystal)
24. If You Could See Me Now by Cecelia Ahern (Recommended by Crystal)

A year ago on one fine day in January, I decided to make 12 lists of 21 things for 2016 which you can click to see. As determined as I was, looking back, I admired past Sarah's determination to actually attempt that and because of that, present Sarah, is determine to actually go forth with what past Sarah initially planned. So sit tight and watch as I make a courageous attempt in doing life. (A little insight of me and why I'm making a big deal of reading, well, I'm just not a very good reader, I get distracted all the time which makes me have little patience in sitting still and reading a page but I've been good lately, I try.)

"Reading could be the BEST addiction one could have. The only proven side effect is imagination & an edge in knowledge. If put in action, the consequences could be very positive to anyone."

Some sort of a comeback (?)

It's been awhile and getting back on the blogging wagon is going to be a bumpy ride. I'll try smoothing the edges, take the duster out and start sweeping the cobwebs on this webpage. Of course, like how life works, things happen no matter how much you want time to wait for you. A little heads up, I'm writing this while in one of my many unpleasant moods. Just 10 minutes ago, all was good but it took a turn. Words written when in an unpleasant mood is still words written from the heart. Though I may want to take it back after awhile, I don't feel like I would regret feeling how I felt. We're all humans after all and feeling unpleasant is one way of living. It may not be the right way but who's to say what is right or wrong.

--- one hour later ---

A lot has changed since I was back on this website, a lot included me as a person, the people in my life, the lessons I've learnt, the places I've visited and basically a whole lot of realising my ideal style and pace of living. Where do I start? Probably should update my 101 things in 1001 days list. I'll get to that.

--- one week later ---

Rusty as I am in blogging, I think I've developed into a person that is more likely to get distracted, as you can see, I can't even finish one single blog post of thoughts. To describe my situation right now, I'm seated in my best friend, Carmen's room in Sheffield listening to Bach's Violin Concerto BWV 1042 in E major: I. Allegro. That way you have a rough concept to imagine while reading this and future Sarah can read this and remember this little memory. Here are five words to describe how I feel currently with life at the moment.

happy. blessed. content. free. relaxed.

I've been spoilt rotten by my family, friends and boyfriend (who I will fill my readers in about him in the near future). I'm just at a constant speed of always feeling blissful and grateful for everybody in my life. For if not for them, I would never have found peace in my heart and mind. Not saying that, I am completely cured of my sadness and being a chronic over-thinker but progress do start somewhere. I'm a little sad Blogger doesn't have their own app anymore, which makes uploading photos a pain in the neck. In other news, please do look forward to more frequent blog posts and my adventures. Much love to those who take your time to come to my blog to read my rinky dinks and shloopings.

dream journal #19

22nd July 2014

In this dream I had three years ago, I was still in the midst of finishing my foundation year in INTO Newcastle. As the dream starts, I was in the INTO building lobby section talking to my classmates when a man in an old fashioned brown suit handed me a letter. Inside, it said I was chosen to attend an elite boarding school situated in England itself. The dream fast forwarded and changed scene immediately to me arriving to the location. There was a big hall where all the students rested, it was two rows of beds with a desk next to each bed. I was escorted to my desk where I put my backpack and things down. I remember sitting down on my desk thinking that I was one of the lucky ones that had a window right in front of my desk. Outside my view was a park filled with trees of autumn where the colours looked like a bowl of cheetos mixed with nuts and peas. However, as sudden as I got to this school, the overwhelming-ness of everything hit me like a train. I just burst into tears and rang my father up to come pick me up. In my dreams, I have the tendency to dream that I'm in a country far away from home but whenever I need my family or friends, they would be just a drive away and can come tend to my every need. This was one of them. It was such an unfamiliar place but things got better when I bumped into Fiona, Cassandra and Christabelle in the halls. Cassandra was placed on the right of my bed and Fiona was on the left. I took a little scroll alone around the campus and found a path through a bunch of trees when I stumbled upon a tunnel hole just the right size for me to crawl into. Leaving my dreams on auto-pilot, dream Sarah started to crawl inside, for someone who is a self-diagnosed claustrophobic, dream Sarah started heavy breathing and that's when I woke up from my dream thinking to myself, of course, I would never crawl into that hole in real life.

In relation to that, I might need to take a break from watching too much Harry Potter and Alice in Wonderland films which I sense I got the unconscious inspiration from for this dream.

52 things I love about you, mommy

1. You're the most beautiful woman in my life
您是世界上最美丽的女人。
2. You have the strongest and the mightiest of hearts
您拥有最坚强的心。
3. You blessed me with three wonderful siblings
三兄姐弟是您给我最大的礼物，
4. You gave me life
  你给了我生命。
5. You were always there since day one, never leaving my sight and my heart 
 从我出生那天，您都没有离开过我的视线，我的心。
6. Your soft cream white skin
您滑滑白白的肌肤，还有您的声音。
7. You let me hold and study the lines of your hands
 您让我抓着您的手，观察您的掌纹。
8. You make sure I'm safe, always
您永远都确保我的安全。
9. You let me grow and be who I am today
您看着我长大，让我成为了今天的我。
10. You gave me beautiful skin where my cheeks go uncontrollably rosy whenever they want
 您给了我最美丽的皮肤，红红嫩嫩白白的皮肤。
11. You always want me to be happy
您要我开心。
12. I love the way your mind thinks, you're so smart
我敬佩您的思想，好聪明。
13. The stories you tell me from your childhood
喜欢您告诉我您小时候的故事。
14. You divide your love for each us siblings so evenly
您对我们三兄弟姐都很爱护，很关怀。
15. Sunflowers, white clouds, beautiful crafted buildings reminds me of you
太阳花，朵朵的云，美丽的建筑都会让我想起您。
16. You give the most comforting hugs
您的拥抱是全世界最舒服的。
17. You taught me to open my heart and my mind but to also keep my guards up
您教我把我的心打开，但不轻易放下防范之心，保护自己。
18. Your voice audios are what makes studying away from family easier for me
您的音讯让我在外读书变得更容易。
19. You accept me for who I am and let me be me even though I know it's hard
您接受我，让我做自己，难为你了。
20. You gave me thick, black and shiny hair
您给了我乌黑发亮的头发，Pantene广告的头发。
21. All the best features of me are from you
我最好的东西都是从您哪儿来的。
22. I learn how to cook from just observing you do your magic in the kitchen
我的厨艺是看着您在厨房魔术表演来的。
23. You encourage me to try new food
您鼓励我尝试不同的食物。
24. You know all my favourite meals
您知道我喜欢吃的东西。
25. You never made me feel unloved or uncared for
我从不觉得您对我的爱，对我的关心不够。
26. You remind me things I forget to do
您常常提醒我要做的事情。
27. You send me daily encouragements to brighten my gloomy days
您天天的鼓励，是我天天的动力。
28. I know I can depend on you whether in person or through a text
您知道我常常会依靠您，不管是在您身边，或是一封短信。
29. You always want what's best for me
您常常把最好的给我。
30. You stayed patient when I am very difficult to handle
我敬佩您的耐心，尤其是在我难侍候的时候。
31. You age so gracefully, always beautiful from the first day you brought me into this world
 从我出生那天，您的美丽随着岁月增长。
32. The smell of The Body Shop or skincare makes me think of you
The Body Shop 的味道常常让我想起您。
33. Even when I get busy and don't update you on my daily doings, I always know I'm on your mind
虽然在我忙的时候，我不能打给您，但我知道您一直都会想我。
34. You're always giving me the things you purchase initially for yourself that I know you would even give me the shirt off your back if I had nothing
您常常把您购买给自己的东西给我，我知道如果我一身无物，您会把您身上的衣服给我。
35. You have exquisite taste for food
您对食物很有品位。
36. You trust me
您相信我。
37. You introduced God's love in my life
您带给了我神的爱。
38. You tell me you're proud of me no matter how big or how little of an achievement
您跟我说您为我的大小事感到骄傲。
39. You're someone I want to be like in the future
我以后要成为像你一样的人。
40. No matter how many times you've told me how your pregnancy experiences were with each child, I can always listen to it over and over again
虽然您已告诉我了无数次，但我还是喜欢听您怀孕的经验。
41. I admire the way you keep the family strong, closely bonded and together
我佩服您把爱带进整个家，把一家人带得很亲密。
42. You teach me your learnt lessons so I don't make the same mistakes
您教我您的经验，让我不会从范错误。
43. You always leave the drumstick section of the steamed chicken for me
您常常会把鸡腿留给我。
44. You carried me longer than that nine months in your tummy
我在您肚子里时，您抬了我九个月。
45. The creative things you do at a daily basis
您把您的创造力带进了日常生活。
46. You have one of the most generous heart in the whole world
您有世上最伟大的心。
47. You give me goodnight kisses
喜欢您天天的睡前亲吻。
48. You are the very best mother
您是世上最好的妈妈。
49. You're such a wonderful woman
您是完美女人。
50. You still love me even with my mistakes and rebellious action
虽然我会做错事，会叛逆， 您还是爱着我。
51. I know no matter what age I am, I'll always be your honey, your princess, your barbie girl
我知道不管我几岁，我还会是您的宝贝，您的公主。
52. That you are my mine, my one and only, mother
您是我的，我唯一的，母亲。

Happy blessed 52nd birthday, mommy
I love you every day, every hour, every minute, every second.
Please don't ever feel sorry or live in regrets in your past actions
because mommy, you're perfect to me, no matter what.
Also, please know that there is not a passing day that I don't have you on my mind,
I love you.

Yours always,
Honey

妈妈，祝您52岁生日快乐。

我没一天，每一小时，每一分，每一秒都爱您。千万不要有一丁点的遗憾。因为妈妈，对我来说，不管怎样您是完美的。要记住，我不会有一天是不会想到您的，每一天。我爱您。

-宝贝女儿

22 things I love about you, Crystal

1. You're crazy but my type of crazy and my favourite type of crazy
2. We understand each other in a whole new level, "telepathy"
3. You have this very strong positivity bubble that I always want to be around
4. We're overly attached to each other, first priority!
5. We have an endless list of inside jokes (OXYGEN JUSEYO!)
6. You give the best encouragements when mine is running low
7. You make the craziest and the best faces in photos
8. We share a love for Alice in Wonderland
9. We're always striving to tick off more "firsts" whenever we're with each other
10. I would describe our conversations as a headless chicken running around mars
11. I know I can depend on you on skincare advice or just generally
12. No moment is dull when I'm with you
13. I adore your sudden realisation on anything and everything
14. I get so excited to see you every single time we meet, even it's three different times of a day
15. You bring out the goofy side of me every time we meet, without fail
16. I trust you more than I trust myself
17. We can hang out for days on end and never get sick of each other
18. I always learn something new from you or about you
19. I can't imagine not having you in my life and my future
20. You make me a better person
21. You care for me so dearly and I cannot emphasis enough that I aggressively appreciate you
22. That it was so easy for me to write this list down, that's how much I love you.

Happy blessed 22nd birthday, Crystal ♡
Stay mad and kind till we meet again.
I love you.